And there goes another one...

The 3rd one in less than 5 years. The 2nd one that couldnt serve full term due to health issues.

Heart has this knife-stabbing pain. Every single one we treated like family, with real care and respect. And in return, all leaves.

Dread thinking we have to wait another 3-6mths for replacement... And worst still the training part when replacement finally comes.

But before that.. I'm worried about the kids at home; especially the little one which is so dependant. Am concerned that the grandparents will not be able to put up with his fussiness, worried that no one knows what he wants.. Whether he's hungry, he's tired or if he isnt feeling well.

I dont like goodbyes. Hate it to the roots!! Yet I'm always not given a choice. I want to be nice, but there's no way that I could, for the best for ourselves. If there was a way the results arent how it is, I can imagine how happy everyone would still be now and could be in future. Just too bad that none of us will see the future that I would like to happen.

Mysteries remain as mysteries. Unanswered questions will leave our shores still unanswered. Hopefully the heartache will disapear the moment all these are over.

In the interim, there are lots that need to be done

I'm a very simple person that wants a mundane simple life. Why are there so much 'excitement' packed into my little family?

Need lots if strength to get through this.. How shall we do it?

And since I dont think I can say goodbye to your face without breaking down, goodbye. Hopefully all will turn out fine for you. Take care there and work smart in future.